Merry Christmas

Poem.

My Awakening

Depths of sorrow

In a heart that is hollow

Scarred by your lies

You await my demise

Each cut an inch deep

Slowly dying in my sleep

Those openings you call eyes

The bed of most of your lies

Held secrets of deceit

It is I you wish to defeat

But I am defeating me

By being with you

Out these openings I can see

I know what I have to do

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I'll leave you with something positive!

You see things differently once you step outside of yourself and see what the world sees. Life is a beautiful thing...a journey. Our purpose is to grow. There must be rainy days for a flower to grow. If the sun is shining all the time there is no growth. So my people: Grow!

Mmhmm

I MUST LEARN THIS ROUTINE

Dead

Jay-Z Concert was BOSS!!

It was the best concert I have EVER been to in LIFE!!! Biz Markie hosted the lil pre show which was fun...He was playin all my songs. Then JAY came out and MURDERED IT!! I loved every performance except for Beyonce's [Not to throw shade but I was like "Umm okai?" when she came out...I didnt see the relevance of her peroforming Diva] I loved Rihanna and Kanye's performance...[I think I have a girl crush on Rihanna, she bad] and umm MARY KILLED IT!! John Mayor was awesome.....Love Love Loved IT!!

Chris Brown Interview

LMAO

My Movie Reviews

I saw three movies this past week so I thought I'd do a short review on each.

Halloween: This movie fuckin sucked. The plot sucked, the concept sucked, but it did have some thrilling moments. It was unrealistic though. Why the fuck wont Michael Myers die??? They need to burn that mofo.

The Final Destination: This movie was okai. Mediocre at best. I loved the gore but I wish they had more creative ways to die.. Getting hit by a car??? BORING....If it wasn't for the whole 3-D thing, this movie would FAIL.

Inglorious Basterds: This was sooo not my type of movie but I liked it only because of the few gore-filled moments and Brad Pitt. Its a thrilling action flick about Nazis but its funny. Weird mix but what do you expect from Quentin Tarentino. Brad Pitt did a freakin awesome job in this movie! Oscar worthy performance.. [ and I'm not just sayin that cause he's hawt ]

Yeah so thats it for now...I'm currently watchin Project Runway and Real Housewives of Atlanta so this was a rushed post..

Till next time my loves... <33

Crazy Granny & a Stripping Minor

This is a damn shame. As if the fifteen year old stripper wasn't enough.....This crazy grandma made me SMH. The worst part is ...thats some shit my grandma would do! *looks down in shame*

Princess iPod

Is it weird that I named my iPod Princess? lol I love it. I don't know why I didn't get it sooner. My cell phone must be jealous that I use Princess so much. I already out 700 songs and 48 apps on it. I'm in the process of downloading some YouTube videos right now so I can put em on. I'm glad I sprung for the 16 GB cause the 8 GB wouldn't have done it for me lol ...So yeah I'm happy!!!!! It was a good investment. =]
Now time to go see my good friend eBay and order some screen prtoectors for 99 cents haha

My Trip to Ohio

I just got back from a weekend trip to Ohio and I'm just glad to be back. My family and I went there to visit my uncle. The trip usually takes 6 hours but there was massive traffic in Pennsylvania so it took us about 8 hours to get there and 7 to come back. The ride wasnt that bad considering there were 3 small kids with us. We got lost a couple times but the good ol GPS in the Cadillac assisted .....The best part about it all was stayin at a hotel. There were 9 of us altogether...most of us teenagers so u know we were actin a fool lol ...We went swimming and I had fun... Even though my yellow ass cousin was tryin to drown me... [No worries I got his ass back in the hotel room...Pranks FTW] Yeah so overall it was iight.

In other news...

I think my summer fun is officially over, but I dont want it to be. I was supposed to go to the Poconos next week but I dont know if thats goin down anymore =/ So this is it. Im in work mode...straight focused.

Addicted to eBay

*Sigh* Really, I am addicted. I go on eBay at least 5 times a day, whether on my phone or on the PC...Its become a bad habit. You get some really great deals on eBay and we all know I love to shop so its hard to resist. I mean come on, where else are you going to buy new stuff for a few cents and free shipping??? I just bought a touch pen for my iPod for a buck =] ...Plus a manicure set, cosmetic case, battery for my laptop, and other random stuff. I love it! But...I think I need to go easy on shopping altogether. Time to save, save, save!

My Poetry

I was going through my Book of Poetry today and I JUST now realized how messed up I used to be. A lot of my poems are very sad and depressing. As happy as I am, I think if I were to write a poem right now it would still be sad. I've tried writing happy poems but they don't seem to come out right. Im obviously not going to post some of my deeper more personal poems but here's a couple of my faves...

NUMB

My heart is numb
I'm unable to feel
Unable to love and
Unable to heal
I'm dying inside
My organs to sleep..
Everlasting love
I shall not keep
Although I want it
It doesnt want me
So now that love
I cease to seek
So now here I am
Numb and alone
A caution blanket
My fear has sewn

This poem is my heart. Took a bit longer to write since I had to make sure every line had 9 syllables each...but it was worth it =]

NINE SYLLABLES

I'm in a depressive state of mind
In the dark you are no longer blind
So now I should be able to see
But I can't; there is no light for me
I am in total isolation
And in degrees of separation
But maybe because I want to be
I can't see, there is no light for me
Where has all of my happiness gone?
Why has it been hidden for so long?
They say "eternal beauty is key"
None of that, there is no light for me
Change of emotions in an instant
Love and tender care is so distant
Now it's time to pray on bending knee
No answer, there is no light for me
Still there are no smiles and no laughter
All an emotional disaster
No one understands, nor he or she
How could they? There is no light for me
Bring the person who can stop my cries
They must be special to dry my eyes
But for a blessing, there is a fee
God tell me, where is the light for me?
Is my light were I least expect it?
Maybe my light has been neglected
Now I see, no more a mystery
As always, the light resides in me

A Mess!

This video is a gosh darn shame. Entertaining nonetheless lol

Ladies...please take care of your hair....Keep in mind that you cant wear weave/braids all the damn time. Not good. Let your scalp breathe miss honey or else you gone end up with more patches then a quilt lmao

Shy Cookie VS the BOSS

I was laying on my bed doing my nails when I started to wonder: Do I have 2 personalities? I thought of this because during my job interview yesterday the manager had mentioned that outside of the workplace he was very anti-social but once in the work place he was friendly. I thought "That sounds a lot like me". Then I got to thinking am I one person with two different personalities? Is there this shy person that can transform into this confident boss? No. Not two personalities, just two parts of my psychic apparatus. Freud said that in every one's psyche there's the the id, the ego, and the super-ego...well I have the id, the shy cookie, and the BOSS.

Freud has been proven WRONG in a lot of his theories, but this one hasn't been disproven. In fact, it makes a lot of sense.

So, here's me:

The Shy Cookie isn't really that shy, just a tad bit anti-social. She doesn't want to be bothered and is often in her own world. I merge into Shy Cookie mode mostly when I'm shopping. That's probably why I'd rather shop alone. I'm in the zone and I don't want people to take me out of it.

The BOSS lady is confident. She walks around as if she owns the place yet she doesn't come off as being arrogant. She's very social and approachable. She's eager to help people and takes a lot of pride in her work. ImBOSS when I'm at work or at school.

[ I haven't been BOSS at the job I have now though..perhaps because I'm way out of my comfort zone at that place and I just don't care. No Worries...My new job starts next week. ]

And then there's the id. We all have one.

The id is a mass of instinctive drives and impulses, and demands immediate satisfaction. It's responsible for our basic drives such as food, water, sex, and basic impulses. It is amoral and egocentric, ruled by the pleasure–pain principle; it is without a sense of time, completely illogical, primarily sexual, infantile in its emotional development, and will not take "no" for an answer. It is regarded as the reservoir of the libido or "instinctive drive to create".

My Show Has Returned!

The Real Housewives of Atlanta Season 2 is finally here! Yes!! Now, for those of you who don't know.... my favorite show of ALL TIME is Desperate Housewives but the new season starts in the fall so..... The Real Housewives of Atlanta shall sustain me until then. I love it! Its sooo drama-filled and messy. My favorite used to be DeShawn but since she's not on the show anymore I guess I'll go with Lisa for now..... BUT I must say...Nene is really growing up. She's coming off a lot more mature this season. Kudos to you Nene! Sheree is still a tight lipped bitch who thinks she's better than everyone but I just love how she handled that party planner. "Who gon check me boo?"<-- CLASSIC. Kim is still a synthetic wig wearing sad excuse of a woman. Bitch get a job. The new chick Kandii is YAWN. She bores me. I don't like her. She looks more manly than Nene does. That cant be good. But as a whole, I look forward to this season. Should be entertaining =]

I <3 Wendy

I've been listening to Wendy Williams on the radio for about 7 years now and I just love her. I mean, YEAH she's a haute ass mess...but at least she KNOWS she's a mess and embraces it lol How sad...But anywho I love her honesty, her realness. I do think she may have some issues though but who doesn't? Her last day on radio was yesterday and I really am going to miss her. I wish her luck with her messy ass TV show though lol

As much as I cringe when she jiggles her arm fat, messes up her lines, or takes her wig off on stage...I LOVE IT! lol

Check Out Wendy's Last Show

Lil Wayne had something to say about my aunt Wendy...Ummm Fuck a Lil Wayne =]

Here's an old story I did on Wendy on my old blog.

Shy?

I've been thinkin about my alias a lot lately....Obviously I go by Shy (or Sharice). But I don't think I'm really that shy. I think I just use that as an excuse to be anti-social lol...Not saying that's a good thing but that's pretty much what it is. I mean there are some times where I truly am just shy...but don't we all have those moments? Idk...Just a random thought.

Publish Post

Sorry for the Hiatus

I been gone for a minute. Now I'm back with the JUMPOFF!!! lol Sorry I been gone for so long..but no worries cause IM BACK! I plan on updating my blog regularly from now on. But for the quickest updates just check my TWITTER =]

My Trip XD

Okai so as some of you already know, I went to Florida about a month ago. My mom, my cousin, and I stayed with Grandma...and let me just say....Granny is living good! She lives in this really upscale apartment complex in Ft Lauderdale. You can see the lake and the golf course from her patio. Plus, they have jacuzzis, pools, gyms, and tennis courts. The downside: 80% of the folks who live there are old as fuck.. Ahh good ass Florida.

<-The view from Grandma's House


I enjoyed my stay at Granny's house anyway. She's the Jamaican version of Madea so she kept us laughing. I also went to the Golden Carrol for the first time ever. That place is food heaven. I just found out they DO have that here in NY..But its all the way in wack ass Albany...WTF is it doing there?...Anywho....I also did a lot of swimming while at Granny's house. We went to the pool like everyday and we went to the beach. Twas' nice. So after spending 3 days in Florida, it was time for the main attraction...the CRUISE!!! Now, the first time I went on a cruise I was about 10 and I got really sea sick...Didn't do anything but stay in my room and eat grapes (that's the only thing I could keep down) BUT THIS TIME WAS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE! The ship was fuckin huge! We never even felt it moving. It was said that there were 3200 passengers but I swear it seemed more like 500. We kept seeing the same people everyday lol ....

So the average day on the Cruise goes as follows:

8 am - Wake up & Shower

9 am - Buffet Styled Breakfast

10 am - Get off the ship

In the Bahamas - [Swim, Eat, Shop]

4 pm - Get back on the ship

6 pm - Dinner at a fancy restaurant..or buffet (your choice)

7 pm - Get ready fo rthe night's events

8 pm - Comedy Show (drinking liquor starts here)

9 pm - Karaoke or Adult Quest Game Show (By this time we're buzzed)

11 - 4 am - PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

The Cruise was only 3 days so the first day we didn't get off the ship. We boarded about 11 that morning and then walked around the ship for a bit. We had to do a Drill and put on our life vests and wait on the deck. It was hot as fuck and we had to be all huddled up with strangers but anything for safety!



After the safety routine we headed back to our room. It was 3 of us to a room, and the rooms were pretty small but it was all good cause those beds were comfy as hell =] Each room had 2 bed and a cute little couch that had a pull out bed...We took turns sleeping on it....[Note to self: Next time you go on a cruise, drop some serious bank for the Oceanview balcany suite] ...

The people who worked on the cruise were VERY nice and accommodating. One of the guys were telling us that they are on ships for 10 months out of the year..That fuckin sucks. Can you imagine having a family with that type of work schedule? ...And they work hard but don't get paid well.

Anyway the first day they had a Sail Away BBQ. It was fun but right after we did the electric slide it started pouring raining. Even with the rain pouring down, some girl stayed on the dance floor. She was this mentally challenged white girl with glasses (no lie) and she had a black girl booty. Now, you may laugh but that girl right there knows how to have fun. A lot of people were laughing at her. Some even started recording her...probably with the intention to upload her on youtube for a few laughs. smh. She couldn't dance for shit but so what...she was enjoying her self. But I must say........she took it too far on the last night. We had an all white party on the deck and this girl had on a white dress and started opening her legs on STAGE. I mean she literally LIED ON HER BACK and opened her legs!. smh again. But, uh whatever floats your boat I guess.

The comedy shows were sooooo much fun! Those comedians were surprisingly hilarious...or maybe it was the drinks.. lol Either way it was great. Me and my cousins also did karaoke...It was my first time doin that in public ...We sang "Stop in the Name of Love" by the Supremes. -->[my cousin's choice of song] ...Right when it was time for us to go up and do our song, my mom and aunt walked in..."Lawd hammercy" lol ...They loved it though.

And when we weren't doing karaoke we were playing this Adult Quest Game Show..OMFG THAT WAS SOO MUCH FUN! That shit was getting wild though. lol Women flashing their tits... Men walking around the lounge with nothing but draws and lipstick on...and much more crazy antics. The object of the game was to show the host whatever he wanted to see and the group with the most points got a prize....So, for example he would say "I want to see a woman's G-string on a man's head"...and women would rush to take their panties off and put it on a guys head for points LOL It was mad fun =D

The parties were a lot of fun too. The music was good...They played a lot of Michael Jackson, of course. Every time they played him the crowd went wild. We were all doing (or attempting to do) the thriller dance....Ahh Good times. And mannnn when they played that Fat Man Scoop / Black Sheep mix we went nuts. Then there was the toga party...(my first toga party ever)...There were workers at the door who would wrap you up in togas in all different styles. It was cool.

THE BAHAMAS

The Bahamas were really nice. We went on a tour of the island of Nassau. Twas' nice. It reminded me a lot of Jamaica so nothing really surprised me. We got to see where Anna Nicole was buried and the Bob Marley resort. The beach was really nice. I actually swam with fish! It was creepy at first but I got used to it. We went to Atlantis and saw the aquarium...That was nice...I have a bunch of videos of the fishes and stingrays. We also went to the "market"....Now that was chaotic. Reminded me of May Pen in Jamaica, Fordham Road in the Bronx, and Canal Street in Manhattan, but 5 times more crazy lol We were only at the market for 40 minutes and there were 2 crashes smh ...I didn't buy much in the Bahamas. And I didn't buy anything on the ship either. My plan was to save all my pocket money for when I returned to NY so I can go Shopping =D ....I did end up buying a couple key chains though...It actually surprised me how cheap stuff in the Bahamas were. Its wayyy more expensive in Jamaica. We got key chains, wooden flutes, shirts, all for a dollar each. And the best thing is that U.S. money has the same value as Bahamian money...Wait...that might not be a good thing lol

Anyway to wrap things up...I had the best time EVER!! And I cant wait to go on another cruise. Hopefully this time we won't run the room bill up to 500 bucks =]

I <3 Sacha Baron Cohen

Yes, this is true. Ever since Ali G (the series.. I hated the movie) I've just loved him. No show has ever had me dying so hard laughing* like Ali G has =)....Ahh and then there was Borat. Most of my friends thought it was stupid...

[Let me stray off topic real quick. Half of my friends are too stiff to really appreciate a move like Borat. The other half are too slow to understand the humor. Went right over their heads. SMH]

....But I loved Borat. Every single part of it. That movie is EPIC!..But now I cant wait for Bruno!! I just saw the movie trailer. I think I might like this more than I liked Borat just because Bruno is gay! Nothing is more funny than uncomfortable homophobes hahahhahaha

*That's a lie....My Wife & Kids has had me dying laughing too but not as consistently as Ali G ^.^

UPDATE: I saw the first 20 minutes of this movie....A MESS. LOL Maybe I'll sit down and watch the whole thing one day.......one day.

YoutTube Cypher: Season 2

Mmmkai so the Youtube Cypher is back and i watched all the videos. I saw deadly's first, it made me laugh [cause of his jokes]. Then I saw Audibles...it was good. I loved Micah's OMG...He did a little arm swing at the end of his rhyme that had me lol ...Traphik was next. I always loved Tim...ever since the Kings of Myspace ^.^ but....I wasn't crazy about his flow this time around =/ .....Last but not least was Bizz [omg] I see him all the time on blog but I don't really pay attention lol but I liked his rhyme. Nice flow mayne.

So I leave you with my favorite video on the cypher..

Michael Jackson to Adapt a Little Boy?

Say it aint so. I think adapting children is a great thing to do but not when you're Michael Jackson! You have a not so great rap sheet Mike. Even if the allegations were never true, it would be best for you to just take care of the children you already have. Where the hell is Blanket? No one has seen him for years. Did you leave him in a tree Mike? Hee Hee. SMH I'ma need you to get it together.

This is the equivalence of R.Kelly adopting a 15 year old girl.... [I had to throw him in there] We mustn't forget what that S.O.B. did.

UPDATE: MJ died...R.I.P. to him. I realyl was and still am I fan. Man was a genius.

I <3 Judge Judy

Funniest Shit Ever!! hahahhaahha That bitch is crazy.

Can You Learn to Love Someone?

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I <3 Gays

Random post. I'm surrounded by homophobic people. Family's Jamaican so you know they're motto is "Battyman fi dead" ...I told my brother I went to the Gay Pride parade last summer and he almost had a heart attack. SMH @ the ignorance. They don't realize that a hundred years ago white people felt the same way about us...and some still do. Progression is ftw..so get with it!

We had a discussion in my Anthropology class about whether gays should be able to get married. The answer was obvious to me. ["Why the hell not?"] ..But some super religious lady felt very different. She started talking about how God hates gays (gee wiz what an awesome Christian you are) and how if we allow gays to marry than they should allow people to marry dogs. Ouch. Comparing a gay person to an animal...a dog at that. What a great person you are. Yeah you'll defiantly make it to heaven. PFFFT!

People are people, point muhfukkin blank. You don't have to agree with their lifestyle (as if they chose it in the first place) but do you have to deny them basic human rights? Ponder on that!

And now I leave you with the single most gayest video in history.

PS - I have no respect for the down low homosexuals. Do like Beanie Seigal said! ("You might as well come all the way out the closet homeboy")

Keri Hilson?

Okay so, this Keri Hilson character is blastin Beyonce on some song with T-Pain and Lil Gayne.

My Open Letter to Keri Hilson: Umm who are you? I dont watch BET so I dont really know what the kids are listenin to these days but ummm Ima need you to sit down . I dont even like Beyonce but heffa you got some nerve. Shit I agree that Beyonce need to hang the towel up cause im tired of hearin her ass too but shiiit you better show some respect. Its funny too cause you wrote some of Bey's verses. If you was that hot you woulda sang the lines your damn self miss Keri. Now, I could understand if you went full force at Ciara or Rihanna. That's acceptable. Even though I like Rihanna, she's definitely fair game...but Beyonce??...I mean really? You're tryin got put yourself on the map but real divas establish themselves as artists first and THEN talk shit about the next ho. SMH - Try again.



My Response:



Sharice; Offering free advice to the public one day at a time. (lol) .

.Seriously though if you ever want advice ..leave a comment and let me know. You can remain anonymous if you'd like. Yall give me advice so I'm willing to help ya out as well. We gotta help each other ! Aint that what Obama say? =)








And now I leave you with a funny ass video. Dude got a lil too mad but, still funny nonetheless =)

Is It Fate? Part II

I'm on my way to school and I see him, yet again. He sits down in the empty seat next to me and I greet him with a smile and take out my earphones. This time around, it seems awkward. He was noticeably nervous and I'm just sitting there in my own world. I keep my ear buds out just in case he says something. He doesn't. Out of boredom, I take out my cellphone, send out a couple of text messages, and update my twitter. Minutes pass and I still feel a sense of awkwardness. I'm reluctant to put my ear buds back in and listen to my music because I find that quite rude. I take my cellphone out again and start to play Need for Speed. Ha! That caught his attention. He starts drooling over the fact that I have that game on my phone. He takes out his iPhone and shows me some Need for Speed imitation game called Fast Lane. Just as it becomes less awkward, my stop is here. As I get up and say "Latah," I notice his eyes are concentrated on my backside. Smh. Just like a guy; to drool over a video game & stare at my ass. Shame.

I Rawk

Had a midterm today...Aced It!! Im BOSS! =)

I Cant Concentrate =\

I'm writing my 3rd essay in a week and I cant seem to focus. Its my own fault though. I have to be online to do research for my paper but do I have to be signed in on skype and yahoo? No but I cant help it. =\ I'm typing more in the message box of yahoo than I'm typing in my damn essay. But every time I sign off I sign right back on. SMH ! Shame on me. I need to fuckin focus !! No more skype, blog, twitter, text messages, none of that shit. I'm so cereal.

*texts Kutty whilst chattin with Crazi and Ryan on skype*

When will I learn ?

Who Am I ?

Yes, I'm a Capricorn. If you want to know exactly who I am, keep reading. This is as accurate as it gets.

Few people are as practical and ambitious as Capricorn. Yours is the tenth sign, an earthy element, which makes you down to earth and matter-of-fact. Caution is your second name and this is due to Saturn, your ruling planet. You are sometimes shy and lack self confidence and self-esteem.

I've never met a Capricorn who was afraid of hard work in order which to achieve what they want in life. You are ambitious and go for your dreams and usually end up successful. You like money but not if it involves risk. You prefer to know exactly where your dollars and cents are going. You prefer traditional types of savings.

Others do not generally see you as too enthusiastic but when people get to know you, you do have a side to your nature which is humorous and affectionate. You like to work quietly and effectively without creating too much bother or attention to yourself.

You are emotionally cool so you don't warm to people that easily until you get to know them. Once you get closer you start to feel comfortable with them. Suspicion is one of the chief traits of Capricorn and when you meet people for the first time it is your way of displaying maturity by not jumping the gun. You like to understand what another person is really about.

You are a big thinker even though you work methodically and practically by taking your time to achieve what you set out to do. You never like airy, fairy concepts and only work on ideas which will vouch safe your financial and material security in the future. You are not a clock watcher when you work because you believe in doing a job right the first time round. You also hate wasting time. You are frugal, resourceful and hard working. Commitment is natural to you which is why, as I said earlier, you are likely to be successful in anything you attempt.

Not all Capricorns are supported in their lives so you learnt from an early age how to be self sufficient and to make it alone. You know exactly how to achieve your ambitions by yourself. Your primary philosophy is that self sufficiency is strength so you do not like to ask others to carry you. This also has a basis in the fact that you like to take full credit for what you achieve.

"Expect the worst but hope for the best" is a saying that I have often heard many Capricorns repeat. Basically you are very level-headed and don't expect things to happen overnight. People admire the way you work because you are motivated by your ambitions but also like to perfect your work and do it properly. You can always be relied upon to help others and not cut corners.

A traditional life style appeals to you because you like things in their place and need to be in control. Because of this you are not always the most exciting person to be around but you are extremely loyal and will never let anyone down when you give them your word. It does not seem to bother you that others see you as less adventurous. The name of the game to you is living life on your own terms rather than compromising.

Sometimes others make the mistake of thinking you are elitist. They get the sense you are looking down on them but this is not so because you are actually a very generous person with both your money and your time and if the cause is a worthy one there are fewer who are as generous as you.

Due to your cautious and meticulous mind you are a wonderful judge of character and can easily see through the BS. You are aware of the consequences of partnership both commercially and personally and are absolutely committed to your word.

If others get to know you they will understand that you are a very trustworthy, dependent, punctual individual that you can always be counted on to fulfil their needs and help them if the occasion arises.

In money matters you are extremely hard to deal with and are sometimes seen as being overly materialistic. Although you do drive a hard bargain your integrity always steers your course in life.

You have an incredible capacity to withstand the blows of life and even if times get tough your resilience and dedication is second to none. You gain greater strength than others from whatever misfortune occurs. You are like the steel under the blacksmith's hammer, getting stronger with every blow!

Your token is the Goat which shows just how capable you are of reaching the heights of any mountain. Your success is likely to occur later in life but when it does, you share what you have with others. You like measuring your success through what you have.

You expect people to be just as trustworthy as yourself. If you accept a responsibility you do so with full commitment. You always demand the same level of integrity from anyone you deal with both in the work place and at home.

You are sure to scale the heights of success and due to your keen focus, discipline and concentration your ruling planet Saturn insures a great deal of success, power and happiness. Capricorn stands for courage and achievement after a long and tedious effort.

At Last!

Finally I have my new cam & mic =) ...Before you ask, no I wont be cohosting your blogtv show lol ...But not only did I get a cam, I also got a 2GB mirco sd card. Yessss! Now I can put a bunch of songs and videos on my phone. Yep, I'm happy. Now, back to writing my paper. XOXO

Oh and a lot of yall told me I should give that guy a chance.......hmmm.......I'll think about it <3

Is It Fate?

I keep bumping into an old friend from high school. I always see him on the train, at a store, or at the movies. We always chat it up and reminisce on the old days. He asked me out when we were in the tenth grade but I turned him down....rudely =\ ...I always felt bad about it but I never apologized. Anywho, so he's been flirting a lot and I always just smile and look away. Now, some guys see this as flirting back but, let me tell you something, I was trying to hold in my laughter. He's a nice guy and but he's just not my type. He's more of a big brother type to me. Btw its not about his physical appearance either, he's rather quite cute but I just don't like him like that. I do find it weird that we keep meeting though. Maybe I should give him a chance =\ but I don't want to lol .....................AHH I'm so difficult. Its so rare that I find a guy that I like. The ones that I DO like are too far away .... Maybe I'm just too picky =\ ..... Ah well, I'ma just ride this out and see what happens =)

To Shop or Not to Shop?

I just came up on some money and I'm thinking about what I should do with it. My ego is telling me to use it to pay tuition for summer classes but my id is yelling "Shopping spree !" ....I want to buy 2 pairs of Coach sneakers (even though I bought 3 pairs in January alone smh) and Macy*s is having a sale so I wanna go there too. I know school is more important and I should do the sensible thing BUT look at this way, if I go on a shopping spree I'm doing a great thing by stimulating the economy lol =) ....

Sidenote: If you didn't get my reference to the ego and the id .. Click Me

iHOP

Yes Yes yall. A whole post dedicated to IHOP. My mom loves this place. She calls me at 6 in the morning sometimes on her way home from work telling me to get ready so we can go there. I'm always mad when she does this cause first of all, on a regular school day I don't wake up until 9:30 or 10 am. Anywho....since I know this is one of her favorite places to go and its nice spending time alone with mom, I hop out of bed, get ready, and go. I always take a long time ordering something to eat because all their meals are equally nasty. The eggs taste like cardboard, the pancakes suck, and their ham makes me sick. Oh I didn't mention that I'm only referring to their breakfast menu. Their lunch and dinner entrees are okay and I always feel tempted to order something from there but who the hell eats a cheeseburger at 6 in the morning ? So i order the Quicky Two Egg Breakfast....I get nauseum knowing Im about to actually consume that shit. Id rather have breakfast at McDonalds any day ! Sausage Egg McMuffins go hard !! But I ate the cardboard eggs. At least mom is happy that I rolled out of bed just to have breakfast with her =)

My Anecdote: Kids These Days

I'm babysitting two of my little cousins and they give me some insight to what kids are thinking these days. I'm not going to put their real names on here so lets call them Travis and Tiara. So we're in the car on our way home from eating breakfast at nasty ass IHOP (I'll speak more on this "restaurant" later) and little Tiara plays Chris Brown on her cellphone. Keep in mind that Tiara is 11 and Travis is 12. So Travis says "Why are you playing that woman beater on your phone?" ....Little Tiara loudly says, in the most ghetto-est form of speech, "I love Chris Brown! I'm glad he beat up Rihanna. I cant stand her. She ugly!" ....As shame takes over my face Travis yells, "How can you say that? No man should hit a girl"...That boy got some sense yall. So the conversation goes on and I try my hardest to not say anything and just listen to what the little rascals think. At the same time though, its hard for me to sit quiet and not correct the ignorance coming out of Tiara's mouth. Then they get to talking about Beyonce. "Beyonce's fine" says Travis. Tiara quickly retorts,"Beyonce mad old. Shes like 45." I chuckled. "I don't know what Jay-Z sees in her", she continues. "Only good thing about Jay-Z is that he's gonna own the Nets in a few years and get Lebron James on that team." says little Travis...I have no idea if that's really true. I know nothing of sports. "I would only marry Jay-Z for his money then leave him cause he mad ugly too," Tiara says.

Now, Travis is a smart kid. He is well-mannered and does very good in school. - (a private school at that) .... But little Tiara has a weak upbringing. Her mom is a straight up BIRD. I mean the type of chick that has a man's name tatted on her breast (she really does , actually) ...Probably has an "insert here" tattoo on her ass but her tattoos arent the point. Tiara's aunt is two years older than her. Her grandmother is only in her late forties and they all live together. Tiara doesn't have any good role models in her home so she turns to those she sees on television. I'm not talking about a good role model like Raven Symone either. Tiara idolizes Ciara, Lady GaGa, and the Pussycat Dolls. She talks openly about how she has stolen 50 dollars from her teacher. She's my cousin and I feel like shes on a bad path but I also don't know what to do about it. I mean I could take her under my wing but I think shes wayyy too far gone for that. She has serious behavioral issues and I don't have the patience for it. Id beat the shit out of her in a hurry but that's not what she needs. That little girl needs love.

Leave a comment and tell me what you think I should do.

Bitchassness Everywhere !

Lately some of the hip hop guys have been showing their queen sides by displaying bitch ass behavior ! 50 Cent , Soulja Boy , Bow Wow , Chris Brown, Diddy and lets just throw Kanye in there...yall a bunch of bitch ass men ! Here's my rant:


My Open Letter to 50 Cent: Ugh where do I start. I never liked your ass. When everyone was bumping their heads to Wanksta I was wondering to myself who is this silver back gorilla with a speech impediment. Still though, I gave you a chance. I listened to your entire album (the bootleg of course) and I liked some of the songs but I just still couldn't stand you. Fast forward a couple of years. You went at one of my favorite rappers: Jadakiss. Now Jada could have easily ripped you apart but was strongly advised not to. That made me even more mad. Jada would kill you in any form...freestyle or written...but Jada was left looking like a bitch. At that point I hated you're ass even more. FF to present day. Now you're going at Rick Ross. I don't give two shits about grizzly bear Ross but I cant help but think that your antics are just NOT funny. Hopefully you get what your ass deserves. Bullet Bullet! =) ... sorry that's the Jamaican part of me talking.

Soulja Boy - Um...I don't need to write a whole paragraph on WHY he's a bitch. I think its quite evident.


My Open Letter to Bow Wow - Poor Bow Wow. Going through a little identity crisis there aren't ya buddy? I know you want people to see you as a grown man but I cant get the image of you with your little braids "rapping" -- "Hair nappy but I'm happy, pockets full of dough" .... smh Doing sex scenes aren't going to shake me of that image Bow Wow. That just makes me think you are trying wayyy too hard to prove yourself. You'll always be a lame little hot head.


My Open Letter to Chris Brown - Lawd Jebus (not a typo...I said JeBus) where do I begin. You're another one I couldn't stand from the beginning. You're only talent is that you can dance. [CB fans listen to the song Run It again. I dare you to tell me this dude can sing] .. Anywho you're just eye candy for these little teenage girls that don't know talent. Congratulations on that pal. Btw I hope you do jail time for assaulting Rihanna. Hopefully Big Dawg and Dirty Hammer from the state pen can help you get rid of that lisp. - [Sidenote: You know what they say about guys with lisps right? Um....You're gay. Google that] - Smh @ Chris' dad saying that true fans wouldn't leave him over a black eye...MA DUDE ARE U SERIOUS????........If you re a Chris Brown fan and you just refuse to leave his side I hope you realize that you are saying that its okay for a man to abuse a woman. Therefore, don't come-a-crying when your man Chris Brownie's yo ass (that's new slang for 'beat the shit out of you')

Kanye West - Gee Wiz. This guy is complaining yet again about yet another awards show. STFU already. Damnit...hasn't the loss of two people close to you given you some humility?...humbleness, perhaps?....Guess NOT. SMH



My Open Letter to Diddy -


You are a bitch for creating the term "bitchassness" as a ploy to label other men whom happen to have homosexual tendencies when it is you , in fact, that is the homosexual. Trying to devert the attention huh? You disgust me. You are legendary miss honey ! - [That means he has a long rap sheet of homosexual encounters] .. Now, don't get me wrong...I love the gays. I just cant stand you down low men who corrupt my little brothers into thinking wearing skinny jeans and pink scarves is fly while you sleep with women who have no gaydar and have them suck your dick after its been in a man's.....you know where im going with that. You are a liar and a snake. One of these days you're gonna get whats coming to you too. Btw when are you gonna tell us about what REALLY happened the night Biggie died? Okay I'm done ranting. Just had to get that out. Btw 60% of the men in hip hop are a bunch of queens**. SMH @ that !!


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**I made that statistic up. but seriously...rock starts go harder than some of you punk ass rappers. ____________________________________________________________

Before I forget....Remember when Jay-Z's ex best friend from Marcy Projects blasted him? Said him and Jay got burned from fucking the same girl. Ahh so that's when you got herpes huh Jay? Then you passed that shit like its a blunt. I always wondered why Beyonce married you. You two always seem so distant from each other. Like yall don't care about one another. I remember seeing pictures of Beyonce walking two steps behind Jay on NUMEROUS occasions. I wish I would walk 2 steps behind a man. GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE ! ...... So now you're stuck Beyonce. You're a pretty girl (not gorgeous...I've seen you up close in person) ...But how many rich, well established men would want a pretty girl who's a complete airhead with halitosis AND herpes? ... One: A camel known as Jay Z . . . . I hope you two are happy together =) ... I'm still a tad upset that he passed the herp onto my girl Rihanna though. Ugh. Look, I wouldn't have slept with him but Rihanna was desperate. She wanted money and fame and who else is gonna put you on the map like Jay Z can ? ... Hopefully you learned your lesson RiRi. Slow yo fast ass down ! _______________________________________________________________

Great Quotes to Live By

I love quotes and when one catches my eye I have to write it down or save it in my phone. Here are a few of my favorites.

"Radiate good vibes and good things will happen"

"Concentration brings peace"

"Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks"

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

"If you want to feel alive you have to be alive to feel"

"This is a new beginning; learn from losing, cherish winning"

"Learn to want what you have, then you'll be happy"

"Small people talk about other people. Ordinary people talk about things. Great people talk about ideas"